July 3, 2023

The Sun and the Moon

I have lived through seven of the hardest—and at the same time, most beautiful—months of my life. A pure light appeared on my path, and within that brilliance, I saw my shadow. I unfolded it, faced it, embraced it. It was both joy and discomfort. It lifted me up and tore me apart. It was love and hate, intertwined. And somehow, both sides of these contrasts were utterly beautiful.

I have studied the Dao and Yin-Yang for so long, but finding myself immersed in the raw energy of opposites was the most powerful experience of my life. You can study a philosophy for a lifetime, but only through experience do you truly grasp its essence. For the first time, I understood: there is no absolute good or bad. Everything is whole. Everything is necessary, exactly as it is. Duality doesn’t divide—it coexists, within us and within nature, weaving everything together in an infinite rhythm, an endless heartbeat.

For the first time in my life, I felt truly whole.

"Everybody has a little bit of the sun and moon in them. Everybody has a little bit of man, woman, and animal in them. Darks and lights in them. Everyone is part of a connected cosmic system. Part earth and sea, wind and fire, with some salt and dust swimming in them. We have a universe within ourselves that mimics the universe outside. None of us are just black or white, or never wrong and always right. No one. No one exists without polarities. Everybody has good and bad forces working with them, against them, and within them."
Part Sun and Moon by Suzy Kassem

I used to believe that in order to face your shadow, you had to be in the dark. But everything exists because of its opposite. And perhaps, it is through contrast that things are truly revealed. How can you face your shadow if you are surrounded by darkness? In the dark, your shadow disappears, blending into the void. You may sense it, become aware of it—but you cannot truly see it, confront it, or integrate it.

I now believe that it is in the light—when the possibility of true joy and contentment emerges—that your shadow becomes undeniable. It steps forward, demanding to be acknowledged. It is in the light that you must meet it, embrace it, and in doing so, claim your wholeness.